Thursday, February 19, 2009

Some other kind of love

You ask me how I feel
And I always answer you with a "fine"
You ask me am I sure 
I look at you and ask why wouldn't be
You say you just wanted to make sure,
So I say, oh okay and we leave it at that, with nothing else to say

When your gone out my sight
I sigh...
In relief? In pain? or just in amazement?......
In amazement!

Because God has delivered me from so much grief and when he gave me you
I felt special, like he gave me more love then anyone else
I mean he made you just for me, what more proof do I need?

Were not perfect,
You leave the toilet seat up
I have my make up all over the bathroom
You like sports
I like to shop
In other words, tedious shit that makes us who we are.....LOL

Yet we tend to do perfect things...At least we think so
We tell each other Good Morning, every morning
I tell you I miss you after being apart for just a day
You call me to hear my voice when you haven't seen me in a few hours
There's more, but I think they get the point


Our love is not like....
His love, Her love, or even Their love

Our love is different
Our love is.... 
Some other kind of love

A define love!, 
Yeah that is some other kind of love.


**This is a combination of a Shakespearean sonnet and a blank verse**

Can I tell you the truth without judgment?

The truth is I have been deceiving you

Would you be mad that my feelings are numb?

You're looking and pining from afar, but

I'm the star in the sky that can't be reached.

And though you can never touch, you try hard.

Please stop! Because I won't ever be yours

But to be honest, I want to feel love.

That feeling of eternal bliss; so sweet,

To feel the feelings and the emotions!

To feel your touch, to feel your lips, your kiss

I want to be real and not just a thought

Sadly, I'm just your imagination.

I say that this is a combination of a Shakespearean sonnet and a blank verse because though it maintains the structure of a Shakespearean sonnet, I followed the rhyme scheme of a blank verse.

A piece of my thoughts

Being young is just a moment in time
Living life to its fullest is what we are expected to do
We thrive, live, explore, wonder & grow
We go on living life until the day we cant live it no more

As time passes and I grow a little older, I learn some things I wish I never had to learn
but then I understand and deal with the fact that I must learn some things
even if it seems to hard for me to bare

But then there are the things in life that makes al of your troubles seem insignificant...
There are the people you call friends and the friends you call family

Its is only because of you that I seem to make it through the problems I have,
whether your next to me or not

It's the strength that you gave me
The spirt that you help me build up
The push you gave me to keep moving
And the advice that you forced in my head
I love you all!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

No Future

Thoughts gone unspoken
Emotions left untended to
Day's passing me by because I have nothing to live for....

Some may find this ridiculous or even may be shocked
But this is what's going on inside my mind, within my thoughts

I look in the mirror and though I may see my reflection,
I see no future

It's as though I'm looking past the surface,
through the glass,
into passing time
and seeing the worse I could see

I could have the money
I could have fame
I could have the big house
And yet it feels all the same

I guess getting down to the surface of it all
I lost something that I can never get back
And that missing part created a void that just seems to grow and grow and grow...

At the moment,
I have his heart in my chest and mines in his
I have the friends I call family and the family I call friends
I have my life ahed of me
I have a good college and criminal law in my corner

But yet I look in the mirror and see no future